Self Mastery

Today I'd like to talk about how the full moon energy paired with mercury retrograde has completely thrown me off on my energetic scale. I'm feeling all kinds of ups and down, unfortunately mostly downs. I'm exhausted almost all day and for the life of me it feels like I can't get my vibrations to be resonating at the space where they should be. I feel like I'm dragging a dead body at times. My question is why? Is it purely because of these powerful energies coming together to make a sugar snap trap for me? Or is there something deeper that I'm not addressing? I never used to think this far and deeply about situations like this in the past because quite frankly, I couldn't have been bothered. When I got like this I just used, it was a win win for me because I was like this often. However, ever since I started practicing (yoga) about a year and a half ago I had no choice but to feel, whether I was using or not, especially now that I've stopped using I feel my emotions as hard as if Im being pounded by a truck, its fucking weird. To actually be able to feel the sensation of your thoughts? It's so mind blowing how we can do that. Daunting, but cool.

I think it's important that we explore our lower frequency emotions, they are a catalyst to our being. If one does not master them we cannot vibrate higher. So essentially ignoring them is a sin to ourselves. Ignoring them keeps us trapped in a whirlwind of darkness. A wise woman once told me that the only way out is through. I strongly believe in that philosophy because how on earth is one supposed to learnt and master themselves without having been engaged in active study - hands on, practical study? If this doesn't happen then essentially one minimises oneself to being merely a theory, not a tangible form of Being. The crux of the question I've realised always lies in the how. How does one master themselves? what steps does one have to take? How does one know once they have arrived at Nara? My answer? You never do. The way I like to think about it is like this: a great warrior is never fully ready, and thats what makes him such a great fighter. It all lies in the will. I believe the same can be said about self mastery, you are never truly finished because your will compels you to be better, stronger, sharper, etc and in that somewhere within those acts of self will, a master is practicing. You are practicing. So therefore you are the master.

I'd like to will myself to believe that I'm just going through a particularly difficult obstacle course in self mastery bootcamp and that I should just keep reminding myself that this too shall pass. Like the moon, this is just a phase and sun will eventually break through darkness to reveal a beautiful new dawn. So this is me signing out, wishing you a blessed and sober day.

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