Blunt Force Trauma

Hey you, been a while. As you can tell by the title I've been dealing with quite a bit. If you've been following my journey over the years you'd know that I use music to channel messages, process my reality and of course heal. Making music and tuning into my creativity in this way is my form of shadow work. When I first felt the itch to create this body of work I thought I was trying to process and digest healing from a narcissistic relationship (its always about a boy lol) but the deeper I went and the more space I provided for myself to truly look at my own shadow and be honest about my addiction to chaos and stress I was humbled by what I found. I'm sure many of you can relate, especially women within the spiritual community, with wearing the title of "empath" as a badge of honour, a symbol of strength and significance. For me it was a title that I had earned and that allowed me to validate my pain. The problem with that is that I was giving myself an excuse to perpetuate my self destructive nature without taking any responsibility for it. It meant that I didn't have to look at my own inner narcissist that lived to prove a point, to be a martyr, to keep reinforcing how undeserving I was and how cruel everyone else is under the guise that I was serving the collective out of the goodness of my heart. It gave the right to be a perpetual victim. Ouch. Pretty tough pill to swallow but the exact medicine I needed. The moment I realised I never signed up to be a victim that only struggled to survive was the moment I was able to integrate my shadow and all these vital lessons I've stumbled upon learning to create this new manifestation of self under a solid foundation of freedom and victory. I'm grateful for every version of self that held me, stuck with me and trudged through the trenches to get to me to this point and I will always salute the warrior within. I look forward to the journey ahead and if you're still reading this I hope you stick around to witness it too. I have a feeling it's about to be glorious.

you can listen to Blunt force trauma here - https://soundcloud.com/taoindigo/blunt-force-trauma and it will be available on all streaming platforms soon.

Till next time, love you.

noz x