Calling all "mentally ill" Healers, Starseeds, Indigos, Highly Sensitives and Light Workers.

So last night I was awakened out of my dream state with a message that has been ringing in me for what seems like years, finally it has materialised. In my last post I spoke briefly about psychosis and I think even that was an indication that the thought forms were coming into fruition because it's not something I talk about ever, really. I've always felt as if the experience was something that needed to be shielded and protected, as if I knew that it was something sacred. I never understood why, in fact, I clearly remember a fellow brother of light briefly speaking about his experience and I told him not to continue, to keep it to himself because it was not safe to speak of such things with just anyone (there were other people around). Like I knew that one had to retain the experience and let it reveal itself to the holder first before it can be shared with others. As before mentioned, I see psychosis as another form of trance. The only difference is it's almost as if the information and energies come through from underneath you, rushing through your root whilst being filtered through the density of your being rather that the more liquid experience of it coming from above through your crown. It is because of this that the experience and the messages can feel so chaotic and messy, why you feel like your mind and your surroundings are spinning in reverse yet you keep moving forward, and quickly. The feeling of knowing that something is off and knowing, to some extent, you're fucking out. Yet in these moments you're calm. Happy even. That inner knowing. Now don't get me wrong it can be a very traumatic experience especially considering what usually happens after, the intervention. Which is neither here nor there, I agree sometimes it is necessary but there is a reason why Shamans go through this process of "psychosis" as part of their initiation into becoming the healer, in fact the mental dis-ease is usually the signifier that is it their true path. From what I've understood the act of receiving such potency through the root, essentially upside down, is our dualist forms' way of comprehending that this information, this hell loop that you're in, these synchronicities and signs that you cannot explain yet know are important are straight from Earth communicating that she is upside down somewhere. She is speaking from her core where it is scotching hot, where it burns, where the sensation of burning can literally drive you into insanity. This is mother Gaia allowing you to live vicariously through her and experience her anguish, her reverse spinning, her torment. For you to recognise a resistance for yourself in what ever way it shows itself to you. It is her way of telling you to pay attention. To not just see but to perceive. So the question really is what's the point? Why do we as these high frequency beings suffer through these cycles. Simple answer? Because we can handle it. We were chosen to be the mediums that deliver these messages from spirit. Essentially this is what we came here to do, to cast light, to transmute, to anchor and to understand the nuance behind these heavy, deep and dark experiences, to understand that this is not just happening to me but for me because this is a shared experience. We are here to serve on the frontlines in this war against consciousness. That is why we chose to incarnate with these particular blueprints. Now I'm not saying go ahead and do all the drugs and get yourself into psychosis, no. In fact the opposite. What I'm saying is you had that experience or whatever "spinning" experience for a reason. There was something there that you were supposed to recognise and learn from, that it was your particular resistance within your core being that was sending you spinning. Your lightness fighting your dark with the looming threat of mutually assured destruction. Your mission is to find what that resistance is to YOU, sit with it, transmute it then release it. For in releasing it you release a collective. For me it came when I was poisoning myself so severely and realised that I could no longer and had no interest in functioning without said poison even though every cell in my being was dying to purge it, to grown anew. The resistance was the fear of that rebirth. So I span, uncontrollably. Straight after my dream I kept remembering a conversation I had with a friend and he was saying "you know you're so health conscious how on earth do you smoke cigarettes" and I just kind of laughed it off, then he said why don't you switch over to rollies and I remember so clearly saying it's because I need the tar. That's when it hit me, that's how Earth felt, she had become addicted to the toxicity that was imposed on her. There has to be synchronistic value in understanding so clearly my mirrored reality with the Earth only now that she is dealing with exactly this right now and getting herself clean. So fellow light beings I am inviting you during this time of rest and rejuvenation to go back to those times and pierce the veil with courage and love. Unpack exactly what happened to you, what stood out to you, what truth were you actually seeking or was seeking to be found by you? In that nugget you will find gold. Let us all do our part. Love and light xxx